(This is the text of a talk last week at a Ladies' event at church: An Evening of Encouragement)
Have you ever had a moment when you realise
something about yourself, something deep inside that’s been hidden for a long
time, and it gives you a shock? Sort of like a wake up call from God? Well, this evening for me is the end point (or maybe it’s not the end point at all!
Who knows what He has planned from here onwards?) of a thought process
that started with a bit of a shock a few years ago. It was one of those moments where the penny drops, and makes quite a thud.
I was surfing the internet, as you do when
there’s housework needing doing, and I read a blog post about women and
friendship. It was a beautiful post celebrating women and sisterhood and the
support and encouragement and sort of connection that is specific to women. The
special bond between a group of female friends. Maybe you can imagine that.
Maybe you know exactly what the author meant. To illustrate her point, she’d
taken photos of women at a local conference that she’d gone to. There were
groups of twos, threes, fives, big happy, laughing, hugging ladies having a
good time together.
You know what came into my head?
It’s not true.
Emphatically. The voice in my head was loud
and angry.
It’s not real.
I surprised myself with my cynicism. It
came from somewhere deep inside me that I hadn’t been aware of. These women had
done nothing to me except stare at me from the screen looking as if they were
having a great time enjoying each others’ company and being the best of
friends, and yet I looked at them with a resentful suspicion that unnerved
me. I just didn’t believe any of that
picture perfect friendship stuff – in fact it annoyed me. I studied their faces and tried to work out who was faking that happy smile, what they were really thinking beneath what was surely a facade.
I’ve no idea how this is going to sound to
you – you might well wonder what’s been wrong with me - but the
truth is that until these past few years, I’d never had a close female friend.
As I was growing up, I had a few so-called friends, but they weren’t all they
should have been. Maybe I picked the wrong girls, or the wrong girls picked me,
and I was grateful to have been picked by anybody, but they were full of hurt
and betrayal and unhappiness and they sapped a lot of confidence from me.
One day she’d be my friend, the next she
wouldn’t talk to me. On the way to school I’d never know what day it would be.
On the on-days she’d link arms with me and all would be well. On the off-days
she’d tell the other girls mean things and laugh at me. She’d do mean things, but the worst, it turns
out, were the things she said. On the on-days, for my own good, she’d tell me
that I was fat and ungainly and she’d advise me on who I should avoid standing
next to because they were so much slimmer and prettier than I was. She told me
that I’d never get anywhere, be anyone. She criticized the way I walked and the
way I laughed.
Another she, years later, my tutor at
university. I stood up to her when she made my friend cry, and she took
me on one side and told me that my friends had told her bad things about me,
but she wouldn’t tell me who, or what. I looked around at the people I shared
the lecture room with in a different way
after that. I didn’t trust anyone any more. She told me that I had no
integrity, that there was something wrong with me that other people could see.
Sticks and stones may indeed break our
bones, but whoever said words can’t hurt was talking rubbish. Words can
demolish people. They can chip bits off us and leave us fragile and wounded.
The more chipped-away-at we are, the more
closed off we become. If we do recognize what we’re doing - and we might well
do it all subconsciously and not think about it at all - we rationalize that
we’re becoming more self-sufficient, saving ourselves hurt by keeping people
arms length. It seems a sensible solution, and it even seems to work.
So I read this article about the wonderful miracle
of women and the power we have to build up and I realized that I felt as if I had
only really seen the power women have to bring each other down, and this had an
escalating effect on my whole life. I would walk into a room, and be
immediately intimidated. I have to say, it’s a bit better, now, but it’s still
a challenge for me. The voices that tell me the lies about those women are still there, and I have to work hard to shut them up. (I’m a work in progress).
I would walk in, and assume that everyone was looking at me and criticizing me. What I was wearing, my make up, my face, my
words. They would noticing every flaw that I’d tried so hard to conceal, physical
and emotional. My bad hair day, the spot on my chin, the fact that my jeans were a little bit tighter than they were last month, my confusion and lack of
confidence. They'd look at me when I walked in and talked scathingly about me when I
left. Something inside me was programmed to believe that this is what other
women do. To each other. My
default position was one of apology and defensiveness. All that because of
words spoken to me years earlier.
If I’m honest, I was afraid of other women.
I was fully aware of their power. Women can destroy each other with a look, a
remark, an expression. We can crush. We may not do it with our muscles, but the
devastation is complete.
The thing is, God can do amazing things. However, it’s a bit uncomfortable when He starts operating on
an area of your life that you never knew needed surgery. The wake up call for
me was when I saw this article, but He’d already been working lots before that.
I do know what friendship is, now.
It’s taken me this long. I know what it’s like to have friends who are gifts
from God. People who know me and stick
with me, keep my secrets, comfort,
inspire and encourage me, and talk sense into me when I don’t have any of my
own. People who speak truth to me.
People who’ve helped God counteract the
lies spoken to me over the years.
Words from my childhood and university days
had caused fairly deep damage to my fragile self-worth, my image of what
friendship could be, and even my view of other women.
It comes down to the power we have and how
we use it. We have the power to change people’s lives,
and we need to realize that and use it to change them for the better, and not
for the worse. You can chip away and undermine, or you can do quite the
reverse. The girls and women I’ve been talking about used their power
deliberately to damage, but we can learn how to use that same potential to
build someone up, and the results can be just as dramatic.
Encouragement is a wonderful term that has
inside it a whole host of possibilities.
It means to inspire with courage, spirit or
confidence – to help someone needing courage to find some. You can do it. I
believe in you.
It means to stimulate by assistance,
approval – to boost someone, to give them something that they can use to find
more inside themselves. To let them know that you’re on their side, that you’re
cheering for them. To lift someone up, to take them higher, to remind them of
how far they’ve come, how well they’re doing. To embolden, hearten, reassure,
urge, support, help.
Aren’t they wonderful words?
Words are endlessly powerful, and a personal
word of encouragement in the right place can have a huge effect.
It can make the difference between someone
giving up or carrying on. The difference between winning and losing, hoping and
despairing. Something you say might be
just the confirmation someone needs to make a decision, or try something new,
or make a change. It could simply something that makes them feel a little
better about things.
Encouragement comes in all shapes and
sizes, and we shouldn’t dismiss the things that seem insignificant. Something
that seems quite small can be quite powerful in God’s hands. A while ago I was
walking up Chatsworth Road behind a lady. It was one of those awkward
situations where you find yourself walking at just the same speed as someone in
front and so it looks a bit as if you’re a stalker – you have this dilemma - do
you speed up and overtake, thus having to continue to walk at a faster than
normal pace all the way up a straight road, or do you hang back and dawdle,
only to catch up again… maybe that sort of thing just happens to me.
Anyway, I was walking behind this lady, and
I admired her haircut. Is that familiar? You stand
in a queue at the post office or somewhere, and admire someone’s jacket, or
outfit or shoes or anything, but you never say
anything for fear of being thought odd or invading personal space. Well, I was
walking up Chatsworth Road, staring at this lady’s hair, and it came into my
head that on this occasion I should tell her how nice it looked.
Seriously?
I decided that if she turned right up Quarry
Lane, I’d say nothing.
She didn’t.
If she turned up Vincent Crescent, I would
say nothing. If she carried on, I’d say something.
We got to the junction with Vincent Crescent,
and she didn’t turn off. So, as we
approached my turn onto Chatsworth Avenue, I accelerated slightly, drew
alongside and said to her, ‘This might
sound a bit silly, but I’ve been walking up the road behind you, and I’ve been
thinking how nice your hair looks.’
I smiled at her, and made to walk away, and
she stopped me. She said,
‘Do
you really think so? Oh, thank you so much. I’ve just had it done at a
different hairdresser, and I wasn’t too sure if it suited me. I’ve been
worrying. I don’t think my daughter will like it. She liked it how it was, but
I fancied a change. Thank you so much.’
It made a difference to her. I don’t kid
myself that I did anything profound,
but I believe that God nudged me to tell that lady that she had nice hair. He
knew she was feeling anxious and insecure and through my words He helped her
with that. She walked off a little straighter.
I hope it helped her face her
daughter with a bit of confidence, but even if her daughter didn’t like it, at
least she knew that there was a strange woman stalker on Chatsworth Road who
did.
God is in the business of encouraging. He
cares about details like angst over haircuts, and He cares about the big
whopping life choices that won't grow out in four weeks. He doesn’t want us to be closed
off solitary individuals struggling alone in a crowd with our own neuroses and
problems. He never meant it to be that way. He told us that we’re family, and we should be caring for one
another. Helping each other with battles. Cheering for each other. Willing to
be honest with each other about life and pick each other up when necessary, in
a big way or a little way.
Anxiety in a man's heart
weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.
Proverbs 12:25
Small encouragements are all about the
pleasure of being noticed, thought about. That someone cared enough to consider
me. We all long to be approved of,
affirmed. I have had several compliments about a particular shoulderbag of mine
and I love it when someone says something. I always say, ‘Thank you. A friend made it for me.’ It gives me pleasure that someone shares my impeccable
taste in accessories, but also that I have a friend who is so skilled and also
that cared enough to make me something so beautiful.
There are big things, too. Just now and again we get an opportunity to
speak simple words into a person’s life, even if we might never know that
that’s what we did. I think God gives the gift of prophecy to some people, but
I think that much more widely He gives opportunities to speak words that find a
home deep inside someone’s heart.
A few people did this for me: they spoke
into the dreams that I have for my life, and I have never forgotten their
words. When I was nine, a teacher at
junior school wrote in my autograph book,
‘To
the Daphne Du Maurier of tomorrow: keep on writing!’
My Dad had several books published and we
were so proud of him. He inscribed one of them to me with the words,
‘To Helen: may she write more and better
books than this.’
There are people
in this room who have encouraged me who have no idea how precious their words
were – and are – to me. I filed these things away in my heart and they continue
comfort and motivate and inspire me. I dream
of writing something one day and these encouragements keep me going when the
little voices in my head tell me that it’s been said already and said better
than I could say it and I should just give up and open a packet of biscuits.
These are raw things; to reveal your dream
to someone is a scary thing because they might tear it down. Again, it reminds
me of the girl at school in whom I confided the same dream. She laughed and
said, ‘Dream on, Helen.’ It hurt, but
that's exactly what I did. I dreamed on. Because on that occasion the positive words of
my teacher were more powerful than her bitter ones. Without that specific
encouragement like a stake holding steady a vulnerable sapling, she might have uprooted my dream.
Gracious words are like a
honeycomb, sweetness to the soul
and health to the body.
Proverbs 16:24
Someone believed in me. Some days I feel
able to take on the world, others completely defeated, but those words stay
solid for me. When my teacher wrote that lovely line in my autograph book, I
bet he had no idea of the impact it would have on me.
We have no way of knowing what God might do
in the future to join up the dots and make our innocuous comment into something
huge and powerful for someone. The thing
we say, the little tiny dot that we add – might be just one in a long chain
that God is adding to a person’s life that will one day join up and become
something amazing.
A word fitly
spoken is like apples of gold in a setting of silver.
Proverbs 25:11
Encouragement counteracts the vulnerability
that we all feel when we fall prey to comparisons. Someone noticed something
positive and affirming and bothered to tell me. My self worth takes a little
boost. Someone once said that we are like buckets and life punches holes all
over the buckets and our self-esteem pours out of the holes. When we encourage
each other, we fix some of those holes, and we refill a little of the
self-esteem that leaked out.
I think we’re doing a vital part of God’s
work in encouraging each other. Encouragement is listed by St Paul in Romans 12
as one of the separate gifts in the Body of Christ, and maybe it’s true that
some people have a special ability to discern an opportunity for encouraging
someone, but I think there’s no doubt that each one of us is able to do it. It's what God told us to do.
Therefore encourage one
another and build one another up, just as you are doing.
1 Thessalonians 5:11
Prayer:
Father God
Thank you that you care about every detail
of our lives. There’s nothing too small or too big for you to be interested in
and there is no wound too deep for you to heal.
Maybe there is someone in this room who
feels that they have more experience with cold and painful words spoken over
them in their lives and not so much hope and encouragement. Lord, we know that
it’s not too late. We know that you can heal and make new. Reach into the
depths of us, will you, and mend the bits that are broken?
We know that you are the Healer. That we
don’t have to settle for wounds that won’t heal even if we’re used to them
being there. We don’t have to tell the story of the way those wounds were
inflicted and shrug and say, ‘That’s just how I am.’ Thank you that you are a
God of restoration. That you want far more for us than this.
Teach us how to be encouragers, Father. To
listen for your voice when you prompt us and be obedient to speak if you ask us
to. To notice people, really notice them. To take opportunities to build up and
point people to you, for you are the answer, whatever the question.
Teach us to want the best for each other,
and always be on the lookout as to how we can encourage each other to keep going
in pursuit of your best for us.
Lord, teach us more about the power that we
have to change each others lives, and teach us how to use it wisely. Let us
only bless, and never harm. Let us love, inspire, nurture, comfort and
encourage each other.
In the name of Jesus Christ
Amen.
After this we made 'Encouragement boxes' where we decorated our own little box, and then wrote on small cards words of encouragement for each other. People were encouraged to pray for an individual and wait on God to see if there was anything specific that He wanted to say. We used scripture, wrote prayers, told anecdotes and gave thanks for each other. Everyone went home with a box of cards to read through and be encouraged by.
